Those eyes

Pray upon this lonely soul,
Holding your hand in mine,
As you rest your head against me,
Connecting in this embrace.

Choose the dance.

Tell me how you want it,
Look into my eyes and I into yours,
I’ll lean close,
And listen.

I want to hear your chocolate whispers.

No need for the rational,
Dance with me in the faded,
Amongst the candles,
In its orange glow.

Is there a reason to need?
Or is there a reason to be?
-Those eyes

Is there always an ending to the choices we make in life? Perhaps the end never comes as soon as we think, or isn’t over when we think it is over. I’ve learnt it over the past month or so that things don’t simply go away, simply end like that.

But would I trade it for anything else? The life that I have lived for another? I say no, this life is precious because it’s by my actions and choices that have influenced the outcome of my life, it is the life that has my work, my input, my follies. That’s what makes it more valuable, precious and unique and because I’m the one who lived my life, not someone else.

If I died tomorrow, I would have died knowing that I lived my life without regret and that I appreciate it a lot, despite its downs, it brought me many highs that made me appreciate and treasure life, which gives us these experiences and teaches us many things. The thing I’ve said so many times, and can never say enough of, life is about its experiences, it’s what makes life worth living, the good and bad.

The problem for most people is they do not or have yet to appreciate it. They go throughout life never really contemplating about it, until it hits them one day, and they worry about all the lost contemplation, and when they think about their purpose of life, the directions they took, the choices they made. When they start doing it for the first time, it may be so overwhelming because they have so much to make up for.

When was the last time you reflected about your life? What happened before, what caused it, what you learnt from it, how it affects you now, what choices do you have now, what you can do, will do and what direction will you take for your future?

Life’s many questions that we often fail to sit down and really think about it. It’s something that is often procrastinated about. When you reflect, you can relook goals you’ve set before, or set goals if you have not yet, or update it based on what you think is better. Are you able to die tomorrow without regrets?

Many of us are fortunate with time, health, family, friends, school and various comforts that we often take for granted. For some, they think their life is terrible and not worth living, and that there is nothing worth living on for, or that it’s far worse off than anyone else’s. I have an answer for that, stuff that thinking because it’s selfish and self centered. Remember this, our life isn’t simply ours, it belongs to the world, to the people we will meet, affect and experience with.
Remember those who brought us into this world, they gave us life, they may not be the most perfect people but they gave you life. I could sit here and continue telling you about why your life simply isn’t yours, so taking it for granted and choosing to end it is selfish.

We live life, experiencing it unhindered. Have you ever thought to think about those who can’t walk, hear or see? If you’re thinking that you’re now more fortunate than them, I’d say yes and no. Yes because you don’t have a disability and can experience the maximum that life can offer, and no because a person with a disability can sometimes experience life more than you.

Why do I say that? Because a person with a disability might appreciate what he or she has more. The person may have reflected life more, enjoyed and appreciated the experiences that they could get and enjoy living more than you. So for every person who thought they their life was miserable, the reason for it being miserable is because you make it to be miserable.

For me, I can’t say I never felt sad or miserable. Yes I have, and still do, but constantly fixating on it won’t help my situation. It’s all about appreciating what you do, from the very air you breathe, to the wind that blows in your face, to even the water splashing against your face as you take a bath. How much we take from each experience makes the bigger difference.

That’s why, for those people who may have a shorter life span, sometimes, they learnt to appreciate life more and some chose to live their life to the fullest, and experience it rather than take a negative view on their plight. So in say a few months they might have left to live, they could have lived more than they ever would if given years. That goes for everyone.

Do you think you’re going to live forever? That tomorrow will come? Appreciate and learn from the past (where you have no regrets), live your life to the fullest (Because tomorrow may never come) and treasure every tomorrow that comes, and living your life to the fullest makes tomorrow even better, you never know when’s the ending. You’ll want to take your final breath with a smile.

There is a place to be,
Where my soul is blessed,
And you can let go,
Because there is nothing left to need.

I don’t know what my fate is,
But I know I have the choice,
To begin a journey,
To make memories to take with me.

Because I’ll never know when the end is.

-The place to rest