Those eyes
Pray upon this lonely soul,
Holding your hand in mine,
As you rest your head against me,
Connecting in this embrace.
Choose the dance.
Tell me how you want it,
Look into my eyes and I into yours,
I’ll lean close,
And listen.
I want to hear your chocolate whispers.
No need for the rational,
Dance with me in the faded,
Amongst the candles,
In its orange glow.
Is there a reason to need?
Or is there a reason to be?
-Those eyes
Is there always an ending to the choices we make in life? Perhaps the end never comes as soon as we think, or isn’t over when we think it is over. I’ve learnt it over the past month or so that things don’t simply go away, simply end like that.
But would I trade it for anything else? The life that I have lived for another? I say no, this life is precious because it’s by my actions and choices that have influenced the outcome of my life, it is the life that has my work, my input, my follies. That’s what makes it more valuable, precious and unique and because I’m the one who lived my life, not someone else.
If I died tomorrow, I would have died knowing that I lived my life without regret and that I appreciate it a lot, despite its downs, it brought me many highs that made me appreciate and treasure life, which gives us these experiences and teaches us many things. The thing I’ve said so many times, and can never say enough of, life is about its experiences, it’s what makes life worth living, the good and bad.
The problem for most people is they do not or have yet to appreciate it. They go throughout life never really contemplating about it, until it hits them one day, and they worry about all the lost contemplation, and when they think about their purpose of life, the directions they took, the choices they made. When they start doing it for the first time, it may be so overwhelming because they have so much to make up for.
When was the last time you reflected about your life? What happened before, what caused it, what you learnt from it, how it affects you now, what choices do you have now, what you can do, will do and what direction will you take for your future?
Life’s many questions that we often fail to sit down and really think about it. It’s something that is often procrastinated about. When you reflect, you can relook goals you’ve set before, or set goals if you have not yet, or update it based on what you think is better. Are you able to die tomorrow without regrets?
Many of us are fortunate with time, health, family, friends, school and various comforts that we often take for granted. For some, they think their life is terrible and not worth living, and that there is nothing worth living on for, or that it’s far worse off than anyone else’s. I have an answer for that, stuff that thinking because it’s selfish and self centered. Remember this, our life isn’t simply ours, it belongs to the world, to the people we will meet, affect and experience with.
Remember those who brought us into this world, they gave us life, they may not be the most perfect people but they gave you life. I could sit here and continue telling you about why your life simply isn’t yours, so taking it for granted and choosing to end it is selfish.
We live life, experiencing it unhindered. Have you ever thought to think about those who can’t walk, hear or see? If you’re thinking that you’re now more fortunate than them, I’d say yes and no. Yes because you don’t have a disability and can experience the maximum that life can offer, and no because a person with a disability can sometimes experience life more than you.
Why do I say that? Because a person with a disability might appreciate what he or she has more. The person may have reflected life more, enjoyed and appreciated the experiences that they could get and enjoy living more than you. So for every person who thought they their life was miserable, the reason for it being miserable is because you make it to be miserable.
For me, I can’t say I never felt sad or miserable. Yes I have, and still do, but constantly fixating on it won’t help my situation. It’s all about appreciating what you do, from the very air you breathe, to the wind that blows in your face, to even the water splashing against your face as you take a bath. How much we take from each experience makes the bigger difference.
That’s why, for those people who may have a shorter life span, sometimes, they learnt to appreciate life more and some chose to live their life to the fullest, and experience it rather than take a negative view on their plight. So in say a few months they might have left to live, they could have lived more than they ever would if given years. That goes for everyone.
Do you think you’re going to live forever? That tomorrow will come? Appreciate and learn from the past (where you have no regrets), live your life to the fullest (Because tomorrow may never come) and treasure every tomorrow that comes, and living your life to the fullest makes tomorrow even better, you never know when’s the ending. You’ll want to take your final breath with a smile.
There is a place to be,
Where my soul is blessed,
And you can let go,
Because there is nothing left to need.
I don’t know what my fate is,
But I know I have the choice,
To begin a journey,
To make memories to take with me.
Because I’ll never know when the end is.
-The place to rest
Sunday 18 January 2009
Saturday 3 January 2009
Running towards happiness
Can you sense what’s in the air?
Can you tell me what’s fair?
I can’t tell if your mind’s even there,
Oh legs don’t fail me now.
I’m running at the speed of sound.
I’m trying to reach out to you,
To hold onto your hand,
And if we do,
I ask one thing.
Don’t let go.
-The atrophic run.
This is a line I wrote in a short story entitled Atrophic run.
“The angel of mercy holds my hand tonight as I ponder about the thoughts that run through my mind, where my hopes and dreams are questioned and checked by reality in this probability that doesn’t favor me.”
-Nathaniel
The story is about a boy who belongs to a long lost race of beings that can move at the speed of sound, but every time he runs at that speed, he starts to die a little. Thus every time he runs, his body degenerates, thus he rarely uses it, and mostly for mischief or showing off as he is sort of an anti-hero. He meets this girl one day, and things hit it off and they become close, but it becomes complicated as she has something she doesn’t want to reveal. Its story of love and sacrifice, where two worlds meet.
Why do I write about a short story I wrote? It’s the first piece of writing I’ve really written that I felt ok about in a month or so. I’ve had this rut for so long, and it was something that allowed to me to finally express myself.
It’s a new year now, and I ponder and reflect about my past and future. The future being bright with promises and possibilities where the probability unlike the protagonist in atrophic run, it favors me. That’s because I make my own chances, and if one doesn’t one leaves it to whatever happens, which could be both good and bad.
Our chances are determined by our actions or inaction, thus its all about the right actions. To me, the most important thing to increasing one’s chances is one’s mindset because at the end of the day, whatever you get, whether you’ll be satisfied or happy with it is based on how positive or negative your mindset.
For example, if someone gave you a glass of red wine you can react in several ways. To simplify things, we give a positive and negative view. For the negative view, you would look at the wine and think that it is lousy quality and not of the right temperature thus the taste would be partially defined about your bias, and thus you become unhappy, your actions and enjoyment are then influenced by these emotions. Now a positive mindset would be, you got a glass of wine from someone, and the person was kind enough to offer you a drink, instead of having no drink at all and perhaps the wine might taste good if one was willing to open one’s mind, and thus removing the bias and being grateful for the drink. At the end of it, being positive may reduce unhappiness or even make you more satisfied and happier.
You could do the same with a glass of water.
This brings into question the pursuit of happiness. That’s what Atrophic run is about. The person had the ability to run fast which allowed him to achieve things most people could not. If you are never satisfied with what ever you get, you might end up wearing yourself down if you don’t know when to stop. Not that its wrong to pursue better things, but one should be able to be positive about it.
The pursuit of happiness a concept about how one strives to achieve a state of happiness, there are many ways. Some of the common ways are:
1) Setting ideals and goals and working towards them. (Material wealth or power)
2) Being satisfied with what one already has.
3) Helping others (Charity, aiding someone in need or a friend)
4) Relationships (Friends, Family, Lover)
These could come in any combination. Perhaps the hardest is number two. In our society, we are brought up with a certain set of ideals and a majority of us don’t have that has been set by the various combinations of friends, family and media, thus the knowledge of something better may affect us on how satisfied with what we have because we might compare.
At the end of the day, we could always compare, and you can always find someone better off, unless you think you’ve got everything possible. But you can achieve something better than that; you can achieve all or most of your wants.
By making it realistic and choosing those that are most important to you, you make it much easier. For example, if you want to be good at a sport, dedicating your time to that sport can make you feel more fulfilled. Of course, if you had many other wants like needing money, do other sports, it makes it harder for you to be satisfied with just being good at that sport.
It’s good to do diverse things and have several things that are important to you that have perhaps the most fulfillments. But of course you should focus on something because if you often miss out and don’t pay attention to what’s one of the most important things in doing that sport/activity such as the process of becoming good at it, bonding with the people you do the activity with and forming relationships that go beyond that activity.
For me my general focus that brings about my happiness not in according to importance):
1) Writing stories and poetry
2) Having alone time to reflect
3) Family
4) Friends
5) Grades
These are the five things that I base my satisfaction on. To me, I know that my family is the foundation of my life because they are the ones I can turn to the most, thus family time is important and it’s important to have a strong relationship with them. To be honest, despite being the youngest in the family where I am not as close to my siblings as they are to each other, and my parents show more favoritism towards them, I still love them.
At the end of the day, one can have a negative view or positive view towards such things. I used to have abit of both, where the negative used to outweigh the positive, but that only made things worse and made home a much harder place to live. But I learnt that no matter how much biasness may be shown and whatever is considered unfair, I learnt to let things go and accept them as part of my life. In a way, I’d say I’m actually satisfied with what I got in my family, and I’m happy to be me, because I’ve got so much to be grateful for already.
If I had to list them out, it would take a post just as long as this and it would be in point form to boot. When was the last time you listed out the things that you should be grateful for? At the end of the day, you’ll realize you might have more to be happy about than unhappy about. It’s the mindset.
Find that precious light,
Where the two are a perfect match,
A connection without a catch,
Where the relationship and grow and hatch.
-The precious light
Can you sense what’s in the air?
Can you tell me what’s fair?
I can’t tell if your mind’s even there,
Oh legs don’t fail me now.
I’m running at the speed of sound.
I’m trying to reach out to you,
To hold onto your hand,
And if we do,
I ask one thing.
Don’t let go.
-The atrophic run.
This is a line I wrote in a short story entitled Atrophic run.
“The angel of mercy holds my hand tonight as I ponder about the thoughts that run through my mind, where my hopes and dreams are questioned and checked by reality in this probability that doesn’t favor me.”
-Nathaniel
The story is about a boy who belongs to a long lost race of beings that can move at the speed of sound, but every time he runs at that speed, he starts to die a little. Thus every time he runs, his body degenerates, thus he rarely uses it, and mostly for mischief or showing off as he is sort of an anti-hero. He meets this girl one day, and things hit it off and they become close, but it becomes complicated as she has something she doesn’t want to reveal. Its story of love and sacrifice, where two worlds meet.
Why do I write about a short story I wrote? It’s the first piece of writing I’ve really written that I felt ok about in a month or so. I’ve had this rut for so long, and it was something that allowed to me to finally express myself.
It’s a new year now, and I ponder and reflect about my past and future. The future being bright with promises and possibilities where the probability unlike the protagonist in atrophic run, it favors me. That’s because I make my own chances, and if one doesn’t one leaves it to whatever happens, which could be both good and bad.
Our chances are determined by our actions or inaction, thus its all about the right actions. To me, the most important thing to increasing one’s chances is one’s mindset because at the end of the day, whatever you get, whether you’ll be satisfied or happy with it is based on how positive or negative your mindset.
For example, if someone gave you a glass of red wine you can react in several ways. To simplify things, we give a positive and negative view. For the negative view, you would look at the wine and think that it is lousy quality and not of the right temperature thus the taste would be partially defined about your bias, and thus you become unhappy, your actions and enjoyment are then influenced by these emotions. Now a positive mindset would be, you got a glass of wine from someone, and the person was kind enough to offer you a drink, instead of having no drink at all and perhaps the wine might taste good if one was willing to open one’s mind, and thus removing the bias and being grateful for the drink. At the end of it, being positive may reduce unhappiness or even make you more satisfied and happier.
You could do the same with a glass of water.
This brings into question the pursuit of happiness. That’s what Atrophic run is about. The person had the ability to run fast which allowed him to achieve things most people could not. If you are never satisfied with what ever you get, you might end up wearing yourself down if you don’t know when to stop. Not that its wrong to pursue better things, but one should be able to be positive about it.
The pursuit of happiness a concept about how one strives to achieve a state of happiness, there are many ways. Some of the common ways are:
1) Setting ideals and goals and working towards them. (Material wealth or power)
2) Being satisfied with what one already has.
3) Helping others (Charity, aiding someone in need or a friend)
4) Relationships (Friends, Family, Lover)
These could come in any combination. Perhaps the hardest is number two. In our society, we are brought up with a certain set of ideals and a majority of us don’t have that has been set by the various combinations of friends, family and media, thus the knowledge of something better may affect us on how satisfied with what we have because we might compare.
At the end of the day, we could always compare, and you can always find someone better off, unless you think you’ve got everything possible. But you can achieve something better than that; you can achieve all or most of your wants.
By making it realistic and choosing those that are most important to you, you make it much easier. For example, if you want to be good at a sport, dedicating your time to that sport can make you feel more fulfilled. Of course, if you had many other wants like needing money, do other sports, it makes it harder for you to be satisfied with just being good at that sport.
It’s good to do diverse things and have several things that are important to you that have perhaps the most fulfillments. But of course you should focus on something because if you often miss out and don’t pay attention to what’s one of the most important things in doing that sport/activity such as the process of becoming good at it, bonding with the people you do the activity with and forming relationships that go beyond that activity.
For me my general focus that brings about my happiness not in according to importance):
1) Writing stories and poetry
2) Having alone time to reflect
3) Family
4) Friends
5) Grades
These are the five things that I base my satisfaction on. To me, I know that my family is the foundation of my life because they are the ones I can turn to the most, thus family time is important and it’s important to have a strong relationship with them. To be honest, despite being the youngest in the family where I am not as close to my siblings as they are to each other, and my parents show more favoritism towards them, I still love them.
At the end of the day, one can have a negative view or positive view towards such things. I used to have abit of both, where the negative used to outweigh the positive, but that only made things worse and made home a much harder place to live. But I learnt that no matter how much biasness may be shown and whatever is considered unfair, I learnt to let things go and accept them as part of my life. In a way, I’d say I’m actually satisfied with what I got in my family, and I’m happy to be me, because I’ve got so much to be grateful for already.
If I had to list them out, it would take a post just as long as this and it would be in point form to boot. When was the last time you listed out the things that you should be grateful for? At the end of the day, you’ll realize you might have more to be happy about than unhappy about. It’s the mindset.
Find that precious light,
Where the two are a perfect match,
A connection without a catch,
Where the relationship and grow and hatch.
-The precious light
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